♪♪ ♪♪ [ Footsteps ] [ Vehicles passing ] -Keep going, Tyler.
[ Dog panting ] [ Footsteps ] [ Soft metallic thud ] [ Vehicles passing ] [ Vehicles passing ] [ Horn honks ] [ Dog panting ] -The bus is coming.
-Okay.
-Just right around here.
-We're lucky we didn't have to wait that much.
-I know!
[ Laughter ] -How much is it two-hour -- two-hour passes?
-Three dollars.
[ Beeping ] -It's gonna be for a companion of mine.
-Miss, he has to sit here.
-Oh, yeah.
Fine.
Yeah.
-Stay here.
Oh.
-Right.
I wasn't thinking.
-No.
No worries.
Thank you so much.
I'm sorry.
-I was -- I was more -- I was more fond of the dog.
-[ Laughs ] No.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Tyler, come on.
Tyler, move.
Move, boy.
-Oh, that's a dog!
-Yes.
[ Laughs ] A service animal.
-Does he -- He lets people touch him?
-Yeah, you can pet him.
-Hi!
[ Smooching noises ] -Yeah, he's a good boy.
-Hi!
-He's very friendly.
-Ohh!
-Yeah.
He just got a bath.
[ Laughs ] -See, I know how to massage those big old boo-boos!
-Yeah.
He loves when people pet him.
-He's so happy.
-Yeah.
-What kind of service does your dog do?
-He provides -- He guides me.
He's a guide dog.
-Oh, okay.
So are you almost blind?
Are you blind?
-Yes, yes.
-You're blind now?
-Uh-huh.
-Wow.
You got cute eyes.
That's a shame.
-Thank you.
-I'll have a talk with Jesus about that mess.
-Thank you.
Thank you.
-He gave you cute eyes, but He won't let you see.
-Ah.
It is what it is.
I feel blessed anyway.
-Well, you are blessed.
-Yeah.
-But, still, we can still have a talk with Him.
You know what I'm saying?
-Sure.
Why not?
I wouldn't mind to have my sight back.
-Have you always been blind or...?
-Uh, no.
-So you saw at one point in your life?
-Yes, I used to have sight at one point of my life.
-Oh.
-Yeah, when I was in my teenager years.
-Teen years?
That's when your sight went?
-Yeah, that's when I lost my sight.
-Well, you want me to describe myself to you?
-[ Chuckles ] -Huh?
-Yeah!
-Oh, I'm so cute.
[ Laughter ] -I believe it.
-Okay.
-[ Chuckles ] -Got a nice smile.
-[ Chuckles ] My eyes are prettier than yours.
-I bet they are.
[ Laughter ] -Oh, I could get away with a lot of stuff... -[ Laughs ] I'm sure you do.
Ay...
Yes.
-You got a bus ticket?
-Excuse me?
-You buy a bus ticket?
-Yeah, I need to get a bus ticket.
-No, no, no.
I give -- -Oh, I do have a paratransit.
I do have the disab-- the service for disabled people.
I do have that service.
It's just that today... -You don't pay, right?
You don't pay when you get on.
-No.
You have to pay.
It just that it's half.
-No!
Two different things.
You got blue line, gold line.
I got gold line.
I don't pay nothing.
-Let me see what she's talking about.
-You call this number.
-Uh-huh.
-You explain.
-Helping each other out.
That's always good.
♪♪ [ Woman on P.A.
speaking indistinctly ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Computer voice speaking faintly ] ♪♪ ♪♪ [ Computer voice speaking faintly ] -A-A, T-E, T-E-R, space... -Pedro!
-Yeah?
-Come on.
It's ready.
-Mordida, mordida.
-Mordida, mordida.
-Una mordida.
Te doy una mordida.
-iBravo, bravo!
[ Hands clapping ] [ Jazzy "Happy Birthday" song plays ] -¿Aquí?
-Aquí.
-Mm-hmm.
iBravo, bravo!
[ Speaking indistinctly ] iMordida!
iMordida!
[ Laughter ] [ Hands clapping ] -Feliz cumpleaños, Pedro.
Que lo pases muy bien.
-Gracias.
-Deberíamos de darle su abrazo porque es su cumpleaños.
-Por anticipado.
Tu abrazo por anticipado.
-[ Laughs ] -Te amo.
-Te amo.
-Pedro, felicidades.
Que todos tus deseos se vuelvan realidad.
-I need to give you a hug, too!
-Oh, my gosh!
-[ Laughs ] I'm right here.
-You're part of my journey.
And now you're filming it.
-Yay.
Thank you so much!
Thank you!
And happy birthday!
Advanced birthday.
-And Tyler, too.
-And Tyler.
-Happy birthday!
Oh, oh, oh.
-¿Estás feliz, Tyler?
[ Laughter ] [ Tyler barking ] Es su cumpleaños, Tyler.
-Ya.
Ya.
-Deja que se tome una... Tyler.
Relájate.
[ Footsteps ] [ Indistinct conversations ] -How are you doing today, sir?
Just wanted to know if you'd like to sign a petition this afternoon to help streamline voter registration.
-Actually, I'm not able to vote.
-Okay.
How about you, sir?
Would you like to -- -Sorry.
Same.
-Alright.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -I've always found it awkward when I was in college, and people would ask me to register to vote.
-Yeah.
I know.
I just say that.
[ Chuckles ] Easiest way to get out of it.
-Exactly.
No hassle.
-No hassle.
Yes.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -Where are we heading to right now?
-We're heading to student services.
-Got it.
Okay.
-We need to make a payment.
Tuition this semester was quite expensive.
It was $3,500 for 12 credits.
And when you don't have financial aid... -Mm-hmm.
-...that's a lot of money.
-Yeah.
-Tyler, down, baby.
Down.
Good job, baby.
Can you tell me where we are?
-The library.
At the university library.
Okay.
Now we turn on program.
We go online.
And this is an updated version of my computer.
-Hm.
-So it works way better than mine.
And that's why I like to come here.
I do pretty much all my work here.
I spend most of my time here.
I usually spend four to five hours working on my assignments every day.
♪♪ -Pedro, you know, I've been an organizer since I was 18.
And when I first met you in that summer program for other undocumented youth like us, I wanted to film with you because the immigrant-rights movement that I've been a part of hasn't really uplifted the stories of disabled immigrants like yourself.
-It's very tricky.
It's very difficult because, again, the intersectionality between being undocumented and having a disability, it places a lot of stress and anxiety into you.
[ Computer voice speaking faintly ] [ Billiard balls clack ] [ Indistinct conversations ] -Come on, Pedro.
Come on that side.
We're gonna go this way.
Okay.
Hold on, hold on, hold on.
-Right there.
-And stop!
-Okay.
-Stripes?
-Yep.
-Alright.
-Uh... You can feel the ball, right?
-Right here.
It's right here.
A little more.
A little more.
A little more.
More, more, more.
-Right there.
-Now move the stick.
-Move your hand a little more this way.
There you go.
-There you go.
-You're aiming a little off.
Hold on.
-Right or left?
[ Indistinct conversations ] -That way.
Yeah, right there.
Perfect.
-Ohhh!
-Hey, you hit it, though.
You hit it, though!
-Nah.
That was lame, dude.
-We'll do it again.
We'll do it again...it.
-Here...it.
Hold on.
Hold on.
-Hold your hand like this.
Look.
-There you go.
Yeah.
-There you go.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -Hit that.
-Right there.
-Go hard.
Go hard.
-Aw... -Nah.
Never has been for me.
[ Laughter ] -I know my limitations, man, and pool is one of my limitations.
-Is this the pool movie?
-It is.
-It is, right?
It is.
[ Indistinct conversations ] ♪♪ -Wow.
♪♪ -After you have a disability, you're gonna have some type of impediment, and you need to be taught how to work around that impediment.
♪♪ In the undocumented community, that's almost non-existent.
♪♪ I decided to study social work.
I wanted to help people.
I wanted to give an opportunity for those that they didn't have an opportunity... tell others that things are possible.
♪♪ For higher education, I was very blessed to have met many wonderful educators and my mentors.
Okay.
Last one, boy.
You're being a really good boy.
-He's still eating.
-Oh, I'm sorry.
-He's going, "Well, wait.
Now I'm done."
-Okay.
Give me.
Good job!
-So, are you giving it more thought with Braille?
-Actually, I'm working on it.
It's just that the thing that -- what the scriber was doing is pretty much explaining to me what was on the whiteboard.
And pretty much I had to go step by step and tell them how to do all the equations and the graphings and all of that.
So it was definitely a teamwork, but I was able to pass the class with a "B."
-See what I mean?
-Yeah.
-Don't give up.
-Yeah.
Yeah.
So...we'll see.
Something that not many -- not many people know that when you have a disability, when you become visually impaired, low vision, usually a regular eye doctor, he just tells you, "I'm sorry.
There is nothing that I can do for you.
There is no glasses or contact lenses that I can prescribe you to make your vision better."
So, what happens is pretty much they tell you, "I'm sorry, but you're on your own."
And it took me a while to get to Dr. Yesnick and Sandy.
And -- And they told me, "You know what?
They're right.
You have this condition.
I know there is not a cure for it, but your life is not over.
What happen now is that we're gonna teach you to do things in a different way."
-You've come a long way, baby, since that session with Dr. Yesnick.
Remember when he did the exam and -- The way he puts it is, you were like, "[Scoffs] What are you gonna do for me?"
-Yeah.
-"I've been to so many.
What?"
[ Chuckles ] The attitude was just so different once... -Yeah.
-...once you opened your eyes to hope, so... -Definitely, yeah.
-I tell you, Pedro, if you hadn't kept going and fought through all the challenges -- Let's put it simply.
If you'd given up on yourself, there's no way we can help you.
But the fact you kept -- you overcame the emotional obstacles and distress of vision loss and just kept trying to learn was inspiration for us to help you further.
-Thank you.
Thank you.
I will set an appointment later, so... -Okay.
-We can talk a little bit more.
Thank you so much for everything, Sandy.
-Absolutely.
Anything.
Anything you need, hon.
Love you, too.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -Okay, so... We're gonna try a random classroom and see.
Ah.
Actually, it's the other way.
This one's nice.
Okay.
Sit right here.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -205?
-Yep.
-Okay.
So it's that way then.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -So, imagine the first day of school, me going room by room, touching the doors trying to find the correct classroom.
-This fall semester?
[ Indistinct shouting ] -No.
Every -- Every semester.
[ Laughter ] [ Speaking indistinctly ] -So, do you read Braille now, friend?
-Yeah.
I was -- I was taking some classes, but then I got very busy with school.
-Sorry.
-Sorry.
Tyler, hop up.
So I got very busy with school.
So that was why I stopped taking classes.
I was...
But hopefully once things slow down, I can go back at it.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -Um, okay.
Does anybody else have past items or any past things that happened this week?
-While I was certainly not super surprised at the results of the election, it's just really difficult, I think.
And so I was really depressed by that.
And it was really nice to get back to campus and get back to work and be around people that care and be back in the classroom with my students, working with my colleagues.
-Say, DACA -- You know, if we lose DACA, then one of the things that we're gonna really need to focus on for all of our undocumented and previously DACAmented students is financial resources, making sure that we can institutionalize that.
And, so, it's interesting because now all my bosses know that I'm undocumented, so that was kind of like, eh.
But, I mean, you have a lot to be afraid of, you know?
You have a very valid reason for being afraid.
It feels like I'm doing okay, and then I think about, like, what if we get DACA taken away and what am I gonna do?
But, yeah, that's just always there, though, you know?
[ Speaking indistinctly ] -They were talking about the requirements in order to apply for DACA.
And one of the requirements was you should have entered the country before your 16th birthday.
And I entered the country when I was 16 years and 5 weeks old.
The only thing that it does is prevent you from being deported, and it gives you a work permit for two years.
However, I saw it as an opportunity to help out my parents.
I thought I was gonna be able to finally have access to some of the services that I require and also try to be more visible.
♪♪ -I don't know if I ever shared this with you, Pedro, but when I was in high school, I thought that I was not gonna get to do anything with my life.
I got super involved in advocacy, believing that doing so would change my family's situation.
Or maybe I just wanted to feel needed because I wanted to prove my worth to this country.
-I was a very self-destructive person, especially that anger towards me.
So, anything that had to do with harming myself, mostly alcohol... sex, or just hanging out with the wrong crowd.
Isolate yourself.
And just a sense that... lack of self-worth, I guess.
♪♪ But it was not about the incentive that I was getting from those situations.
It was just that constant need to punish myself.
♪♪ Letting my life just go by.
Just seeing the time just go by.
♪♪ -[ Laughter ] -Come on.
-Where you going?
Are we going to your house, Pedro?
-Yes.
-Okay.
-She knows where she's going, then.
Oh, man!
-Oh, it smells really good.
-It smells amazing.
-Uh-huh!
-I'm hungry!
-You know I can't pass up a barbecue at your house.
[ Laughter ] -Please come in, ladies.
You're in good hands.
-House!
-So, whenever I have children... -Hey, Tyler.
-...it feels like... -...like that, he looks adorable.
He looks huggable.
-Like a teddy bear!
-Yeah, he's a little teddy bear.
-They're gonna get into trouble.
[ Laughs ] [ Dogs barking ] [ Laughter ] -Give me a paw!
-Why is your dog so skinny?
And his is like...me?
-What?!
She gets exercise!
Pedro just locks him up in the house.
-You're a horrible owner, man.
-Yeah.
-That's why I don't have children.
-Ha!
-When I was in Florida, I would, like, make all the bartenders feel uncomfortable.
-Aww.
-And you're so proud of it.
-Yes!
-"I did that."
She said that with a smile.
-I did that.
-There was this guy who looked like a Ken doll.
-Aww.
-Like, I would call him "K.D."
and, like, ask him if he was single.
-[ Laughs ] -It was fun.
And then, like, I made him feel bad because I kept asking him for pizza, and he's like, "Does this look like -- Does this say, like, 'Pizza Hut,' like, on our sign, on our door?"
And I was like... -"I don't know.
I'm blind!"
-"I don't know.
I'm blind."
-[ Laughs ] -And then all the people who could see at the table was like, "Oh, he turned really red."
[ Laughter ] -"Give me five."
That's another one.
That's another one.
-He turned really red.
-Yes!
-And he actually found me my pizza.
-Burn!
There you go, girl.
-I think I guilted him into, like... -Play that card.
Play that card.
-I guilted him into, like, finding me a pizza, too.
-Who wants a piña colada?
-Piña colada!
-I need one.
-Alright.
-♪ If you like piña coladas ♪ -Let's not do that.
-♪ And dancing in the rain ♪ [ Indistinct conversations ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ -And let's turn right to Las Vegas, which has become the scene of the deadliest mass shooting in modern U.S. history.
More than 50 people are confirmed dead after a gunman opened fire on a country music concert on The Strip.
More than 200 people, we're told, have been wounded.
-Hey.
Come on.
So, this is a mental-health agency.
Good portion of my clients are undocumented people, as well.
Right now we're also serving the Spanish-speak-- uh, Spanish-speaking -- Spanish-speaking community that were involved in the mass shooting.
We're offering a group crisis for them and also individual counseling.
-Buenos días.
-Hola, Pedro.
-Oye, ¿sí conoces a Andrea?
-¿Andrea?
Ella es nuestra nueva voluntaria.
-Hola.
-Mucho gusto.
Un placer.
Pedro.
-Igualmente.
-El es Pedro.
El es un estudiante.
Está estudiando la ruta de trabajador social.
Y está haciendo aquí sus prácticas con nosotros intensivas.
[ Laughter ] -Si quería practicar, este es el lugar para hacerlo, porque sí.
Pero la verdad, muy, muy bien, y siempre... A pesar de que ya estoy con pacientes, siempre se siente el apoyo del equipo y de las otras terapistas y del director clínico.
No es que también esté completamente solo con ellos o cualquier cosa con el director clínico, con cualquier otra persona porque siempre sus... sus puertas están abiertas para cualquier duda que yo tenga.
Es lo bueno.
-Qué bueno, Pedro.
Muchas gracias, ¿eh?
Y de verdad que estamos bien contentos de tenerte aquí.
-No, yo soy el que -- No sé ni cómo pagarles.
-Ya parece novela de... iAy!
-María Guadalupe.
-"La Rosa de Guadalupe".
-Bueno, ya nos vamos.
Gracias.
Con permiso.
-So, this is the kitchen.
Coffee.
[ Chuckles ] I take it straight.
[ Coffee streams into cup ] [ Pedro sighs ] Now I need to charge my phone.
We need to work a little bit because I'm so behind on my paperwork.
So... we're gonna be here until we got -- until we get kicked out.
[ Chuckles ] My role is case management.
I link clients to resources that are in the community.
I'm also a clinician -- or a clinician in training, so I have a few clients always under the supervision of a licensed clinical social worker or other licensed clinical professional.
-L... F, L, E, P... A, F, C, G... [ Knock on door ] -¿Sí?
-Tu cita ya está aquí.
-Orale.
Sale y vale.
[ Indistinct conversation ] [ Door creaks ] [ Switch clicks ] -And what happened?
What were -- What helped you to overcome that panic attack?
Trauma is real.
Trauma is real.
Now you're constantly in survival mode.
You're just hyper-vigilant.
You're just expecting something bad is gonna happen at any minute, and you need to be guarded.
I'm guessing that it must be painful going over it.
So probably it might be a bit more... or less painful if we do it together.
That way, you can actually continue focusing on your -- on your healing process and be able to move on.
[ Humming ] [ Vehicles passing ] [ Cane scraping ] -Friend, you wanna move closer to the left?
Okay, so... -No.
-You're just -- Okay.
You're okay?
-Yeah, I'm okay.
-Okay.
[ Vehicles passing ] -Stick to your left!
-Left.
-Don't get run over!
[ Chuckles ] -According to me, I'm still on the curb, no?
-You are still on the curb, yeah.
Now I'm just like, "Aah!
Fast cars!"
-Oh.
Okay, okay, yeah.
I'm like, "Wait a second!
I think I'm still on the curb."
[ Cane scraping ] ♪♪ [ Sighs ] I have a headache.
♪♪ I do need to sleep tonight a little bit more.
-How do you usually process the things you experience at work?
-I usually go to therapy, as well.
Therapists also have therapy.
[ Laughs ] Sometimes you just need to take care of yourself.
Eat some good food -- or greasy food, in my case.
♪♪ [Yawning] Distract yourself.
Do something productive.
Something meaningful.
♪♪ ♪♪ [ Sizzling ] [ Television playing faintly ] -Ah.
-Estuvo presente en los funerarios del muchacho.
-¿Cuál muchacho?
-Del Eric quién sabe qué.
Trabajaba de security en... en el evento.
-¿Y a quién salvó?
-El salvó a varias personas de que las mataran.
Pero una bala le pegó a él y lo mató.
De 20 años el muchacho.
Fue una cosa muy triste.
Y lo más curioso fue que fue un anglosajón, porque yo les digo anglosajones porque americanos somos todos.
Todos nacimos en el continente americano.
-Sí.
-¿No?
O son norte americanos, porque ellos nacieron en el norte.
Yo me siento de México.
Y a mucha honra.
Digo, yo soy de México.
¿Sí?
-Tyler, ¿de dónde eres tú?
-Pero también... -¿De dónde eres, Tyler?
-Así como amo a México por ser mi país de nacimiento, así amo a este país porque gracias a este país hemos encontrado personas buenas, ángeles buenos que nos han ayudado.
-Es muy complicada.
-¿Qué?
-Ser... ser... inmigrante.
-Es muy complicado.
Sí extrañas a tu país de origen.
-Sí.
Right?
Yeah!
[ Laughter ] -Costumbres, la comida.
Las tradiciones.
Pero muchas veces en tu país de origen, desafortunadamente no encuentras las oportunidades que te brinda este país.
Mira, Manuel, no digas: "iAh!"
Tú eres el que, gloria a Dios, has gozado de más ángeles buenos.
Dios te ha bendecido.
-El gobierno no ha hecho nada para ayudarme.
Al contrario.
El gobierno no ha hecho nada para ayudarme.
-No, pero las personas sí.
-Pero no es el país, sino las personas.
-Pero viven en este país.
Muchas veces en nuestro país aunque hubiera personas buenas, aunque quisieran ellas, no pueden.
No hubieran podido ayudarte.
[ Computer voice speaking indistinctly ] -Oh, my gosh.
Almost there, friend.
After this, going home?
-Most likely, yes.
-[ Chuckles ] What a relief, right?
-What a relief.
It's been a long day, man.
-Disculpe.
¿Sabe si le avisaron a la persona...?
-Yo creo que no le han avisado.
-¿Qué nombre tiene?
-Ya preguntamos y todo, pero creo que no le han ayudado.
-¿Cómo se llama usted?
-Pedro!
-Yeah.
-Resulta indispensable que nuestra comunidad avance en materia de educación si queremos tener cada vez un lugar más preponderante en esta sociedad y transmitir correctamente quiénes somos, qué estamos haciendo y hacia dónde vamos.
Ese es el punto fundamental.
-The majority of times, I had a hard time being a full-time student because it was very expensive.
So Professor Ezeta told me about a scholarship that was given by the Mexican consul.
[ Doorbell rings ] -¿No le has dicho a tus papás todavía?
-No, te estábamos esperando.
Necesitaba venir Carlitos para darle... -Pero es que yo no me levanto temprano.
-No, no te preocupes, Carlos.
A ver, pasa los vasos.
Ahí te paso más vasos.
-Sí, gracias.
Ahí estamos.
-Voy y te traigo jugo de naranja.
-Siéntese, señito.
Vamos a platicar.
-Creo... Siéntese, señito.
La estoy esperando.
A usted y a Enrique.
Anoche en la madrugada me habló el cónsul.
Y previo a esto, yo había platicado con el cónsul Elizondo Espinoza que ante cualquier cosa yo quería que Pedro se graduara y se titulara, y que tenemos que hacer cualquier cosa para poderle sustentar su colegiatura.
Gracias a la plática que tuve con ellos, la junta que tuvimos hoy le otorgó a Pedro $5.000 para que termine su licenciatura.
Y el cheque se lo ejecutan el lunes.
-Guau.
-Entonces eso va directo a Pedro, a la colegiatura y a lo que necesite para la colegiatura.
Aparte de eso, pues quieren continuar con él, apoyándolo.
El demostró a ellos el interés de hacer la maestría, pero primero la licenciatura.
Este incentivo económico es un pedacito del cielo para que se titule.
-Da un poco más tranquilidad para que... -Sí, respirar.
-Aunque no lo diga, tenemos la angustia de saber... -Yo sé.
Yo me percato de eso, Enrique.
-La angustia de saber que se acerca la fecha del pago y no tenerlo.
Posponer un poco más el... como el semestre pasado.
Ahorita, afortunadamente, ya con esto va a estar tranquilo.
Para echarle todos los kilos.
Yo sé que va a sacar un buen promedio.
-Yo lo que soy es por ustedes.
Yo no sería quien soy, o lo poco bueno que hay en mí, si no fuera por ustedes, si no fuera por sus enseñanzas, si no fuera por su apoyo, por siempre estar ahí y creer en mí, aún cuando yo no creía en mí, aún cuando yo pensaba que no podría lograrlo, que ustedes hayan puesto su confianza en mí y... hayan estado ahí, en las buenas y en las malas, y en las cabronas y me hayan ayudado a levantarme y seguir adelante -- No tengo cómo pagárselos.
Yo no... -Yo lo sé, Pedro.
-Y... -Nada más recuerda el único favor que te pido.
A mí no me debes nada.
Absolutamente nada.
Cuando tú veas a alguien menos afortunado, desubicado, que no sabe por dónde ir, extiéndele la mano.
Porque alguien lo hizo por mí.
Alguien lo hizo por la persona que me ayudó.
Y así.
Es una cadena infinita.
¿Estamos?
Te quiero mucho.
Y lo mínimo que espero de ti es una maestría, ¿eh?
-Claro que sí.
-The least I expect of you -- master's degree.
The least.
Señora, no se pare.
-Pedro, eso merece un súper abrazo.
Felicidades, Pedrito.
-Por su trabajo, sacrificio.
Todo tiene un propósito.
-No llore.
No llore.
Estamos de verdad muy juntos en esto.
-Ya ves cómo el Señor siempre está contigo.
Cuando más oscuro ves es cuando sale la luz.
El te está diciendo.
Entiende Sus mensajes.
Estás solo, pero El está contigo.
♪♪ -I always feel so confused because there's so many people from our community, right, that are just as worthy of opportunities and support, but for some reason, I couldn't help but feel that of all these people, why me?
I don't know if any of this resonates for you.
-Big-time.
To me, there was a big source of guilt.
Especially when it's like, "Hey!
He's blind.
He's undocumented.
He's going to college.
He must be a saint."
[ Scoffs ] If you only knew exactly who I am... ♪♪ ...would you be as kind with me?
[ Wind chimes ringing ] ♪♪ ♪♪ -Okay, ya.
Ay... My back.
-Ay, ¿pues cuántos son?
-Ya nada más es -- nos falta nada más una charola.
[ Water running ] Ahí va. -Sale.
Gracias.
-¿Es para quién?
-Para la abuela.
-Es para mojarme los dedos, hija, porque con la miel de la manzana... -Sí.
-...se me resbala.
Nada más es poquita, hijo.
Así.
Gracias.
-Me voy a lavar las manos para seguir picando manzana.
-My grandma and I, we're preparing the apple salad.
[ Knife slicing ] [ Indistinct conversation ] -Finally, after seven years, I'm graduating.
And I still cannot believe it.
It took me seven years to finish my undergrad.
That's why we're making so much food, because tomorrow we're gonna celebrate.
-Yes!
-Yes!
-The majority of my classmates were super excited because, "Yeah!
"I'm gonna go to grad school."
Like, "I have all these options to go to grad school."
Or, "I gonna start working right away."
Or they have all these plans.
And I don't know what I'm gonna do since due to my situation, my alternatives -- my opportunities -- opportunities are very limited.
That's why I'm not super-excited about it because I don't know what's going to happen after graduation.
It's just like all these... sacrifices, all this hard work -- is it really gonna pay off?
Sometimes -- I know that it will.
Sooner or later, it will, but definitely I have some moments where I doubt, when I'm doubtful, when I'm not sure if... if I want to -- if I'm gonna be able to continue.
[ Knife slicing ] -Me voy a llevar tantito la tina, ¿eh?
-Sí, no te preocupes.
iAy, pendejo!
iMmm!
¿Ya ves?
-¿Eh?
¿Te cortaste, ahora sí?
-Sí.
-I cut myself with a knife, so I need a Band-Aid.
[ Water runs ] [ Dishes clinking ] This is the first time that I have cut myself in a while.
-Wow.
-Like, in years.
So it's probably because I wasn't paying attention 'cause I -- I'm usually very careful when I'm cooking.
But this time, I don't know.
I just got distracted and... [ Speaking indistinctly ] -Gracias.
Y ya no tiene sangre, te lo prometo.
[ Laughter ] -Ya me la traje, ¿eh?
-Pásame la otra, hija.
-¿Cuál, mi amor?
-Ah, es que es otra tina de manzanas.
-Oh, ¿todavía faltan más manzanas?
-Sí.
-Me voy a atravesar tantito.
-Okay.
-¿Pensaste que ya...?
-I thought I was done!
-No, mi rey.
-Girl, you're barely getting started.
-Sí.
♪♪ ♪♪ -Too many accessories.
I'm not sure where they go.
♪♪ -Okay?
Ready.
-Now we have to do Tyler's.
-Oh, wow!
-¿Ya estás listo para la foto, Tyler?
-Que Dios te acompañe... ♪♪ ♪♪ -[ Sobs ] ♪♪ ♪♪ -Que nos quieren tomar una foto antes de salir.
-Ah, caray.
No me peiné.
-Una parado ahí.
-¿Tienes tiempo?
-No sé.
No sé ni qué horas son, tía.
-Las 8:00.
-Alright.
-Tyler, ¿listo para la foto?
[ Laugher and indistinct conversations ] ♪♪ ♪♪ -iTubo!
iTubo!
iTubo!
iPedro!
iPedro!
iPedro!
iMucha ropa!
iMucha ropa!
♪♪ -Felicidades, Pedro.
-Let's go for the master's!
Master's program!
iPor la maestría!
Master's!
Set!
Next project, Pedro's MSW -- master's in social work.
Yes!
iSalud!
-iPedro para gobernador!
-Pedro para gobernador de Toluca!
♪♪ ♪ Porque yo a donde voy hablaré de tu amor ♪ ♪ Como un sueño dorado ♪ ♪ Y olvidando el rencor ♪ ♪ No diré que tu adiós ♪ ♪ Me volvió desgraciado ♪ [ Birds chirping ] [ Dog barking ] [ Indistinct speaking ] -Dios te salve, María, llena eres de gracia.
El Señor es contigo.
Bendita eres entre todas las mujeres, bendito es el fruto de tu vientre, Jesús.
-Santa María, madre de Dios, ruega, Señora, por nosotros los pecadores ahora y en la hora de nuestra muerte.
Amén.
-Dios te salve, María, llena eres de gracia.
El Señor es contigo.
Bendita eres entre todas las mujeres, bendito es el fruto de tu vientre, Jesús.
-Pedro, it's been a few years since we've last spoken, huh?
How have you been?
-[ Sighs ] My grandma passed in 2018.
And that created a trauma to me.
She was already feeling sick two weeks prior of her passing.
♪♪ Instead of slowing down, prioritizing my family over anything else, I decided to go to school on a Sunday... to study, to prepare for a final.
♪♪ And I wasn't there.
♪♪ And a semester later, I got my master's.
♪♪ That made me wonder what I was doing with my life.
Is it because I really wanted to?
♪♪ Was it because it was being imposed to me?
Or simply I was just trying to survive?
I don't know.
Many times I thought about just going to sleep and never... wake up again.
I was aware that if I ever did something like that, I was gonna destroy my mom and my dad.
So I didn't have the heart to do something like that.
♪♪ So...
I found a different way.
♪♪ [ Footsteps ] [ Birds crying ] -So we go through here.
There's a lotta big rocks.
I'll try to walk you around them.
It's alright.
[ Indistinct conversation ] -Ooh.
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.
-Say what?
-It's just that it's very sinky.
-Yeah, just be very careful with your steps.
Don't commit to anything.
-I'll try not to.
-Alright.
We're coming up on some crazy rocks.
Do you wanna go ahead and go to belly?
-Yeah, I'm gonna go to belly.
-Alright.
[ Both grunting ] [ Water bubbling ] [ Voices muffled ] ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ -We've actually become quite famous.
I go into a lot of the running stores, like, the bike stores and stuff around there.
And a lot of people will see me when I go in there, and they're like, "Oh, you're Pedro's guide."
And I'm like, "Yeah.
I also have a name.
It's Chris.
But 'Pedro's Guide' works."
[ Laughs ] So it works.
You kinda made us famous.
-Yeah.
-And everyone's always yelling "Team Pedro."
So we decided on our 50K, last time, that he and I together are Team Pedro.
-Yeah, we're just one.
-Because together, he's just Pedro.
Or with both of us, we're Team Pedro.
-Team Pedro.
-Yeah.
♪♪ Forward!
♪♪ Alright.
Big bump.
Bump.
-Got it.
-Awesome.
There's gonna be a big bump in just a little bit.
We're gonna pedal a few times.
♪♪ -Running grounds me.
It helps me to reconnect with the present.
The depression didn't go away.
The anger didn't go away.
But at least I learned how to better cope with it.
Just focusing on what's in front of me, putting one foot in front of the other.
♪♪ -Pedro, you know, when I was younger, I thought that I could do anything and be anything.
But as I've gotten older, sometimes I reflect on how powerless I can be over the circumstances of my life, over the things even that I feel in my chest and don't understand.
I feel so confused and suffocated.
It's like I'm drowning in an ocean that's out of my control.
-That's why I hate to think about my future.
I cannot go any higher when it comes to my education.
I got my master's.
I got my license.
But I cannot work.
I'm stuck.
I'm stuck in the limbo.
And it's unjust.
I believe that we all should have that ability of dreaming about our futures.
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[ Dog barking ] [ Music playing in headphones ] -♪ Mi tristeza es mía y sola está ♪ ♪ No quiero consuelo, no, no, no voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Mi tristeza es mía y nada más ♪ -♪ Ya no creo en nada ni en la flor ♪ ♪ Quiero hundirme solo en la ciudad ♪ ♪ Su... es mejor ♪ ♪ Yo vivo en soledad ♪ ♪ Mi tristeza es mía y nada más ♪ ♪ Mi tristeza es mía y nada más ♪ -iMmm, mmm, mmm!
-♪ Mi tristeza es mía y sola está ♪ ♪ No quiero consuelo, no, no, no voy a llorar ♪ ♪ Mi tristeza es mía y nada más ♪ ♪♪ -iYa está la comida!
-Muy buena, ¿eh?
La verdad sí.
Me encantó.
Está muy rico esto.
¿Sobrará para el lonche mañana?
-Sí.
Salió bastantito.
-Yo creo que sí voy a llevar para el lonche.
Me debo cuidar mucho.
Porque si no, todo mundo me va a pedir allá.
También la ensalada.
-Sí.
Está bueno el aderezo de la ensalada.
-Muy rico, Pedro, ¿eh?
-De lo que hace Pedro, todo le sale resabroso.
Pero así, rico, que a mí me gusta mucho, una vez nos trajo unas ribs de ternera y las hizo con vino blanco al horno.
Y guarnición de espárragos y también hongos.
Le quedaron riquísimas.
-Cuando conocí a Sandy me dijo que en el principio era difícil para ustedes dejar a Pedro ser independiente.
-Sí, fue un proceso difícil porque, tú sabes, como padre, siempre tienes la preocupación del futuro, de qué iba a ser su situación con él.
Sobre todo la cuestión de su independencia económica.
O sea, siempre te quedas con esa sensación.
Pero ha sido un cambio muy positivo, muy favorable.
No ha sido fácil.
Ha tenido etapas difíciles de crecimiento, pero esas lecciones de vida le han enseñado a fortalecerse y hacerse cada vez mejor en lo que hace.
-Pues sí, nuestra preocupación era de que él aprendiera a ser independiente.
No es de que uno lo minimizara.
Porque siempre hemos sabido de la potencialidad que él tiene tan grande.
Y mientras Dios nos dé permiso, seguiremos disfrutando de los logros, de los triunfos de Pedro.
Así como también de sus inquietudes.
Estos son los tulipanes que me regaló mi hijo en el Día de las Madres.
-Esas son las que yo le traje.
-Los quiero sembrar.
-Sí, o se van a marchitar.
-Sí, ya los vi.
Están bien hermosos.
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[ Laughter ] -I'm so sorry, Pedro!
No, it's on me.
It's not you!
-I honestly didn't see you there.
-But that's expected.
-No, no, I got too close for comfort.
I'm so sorry.
That was on me.
-[ Laughs ] I didn't sense you.
My bad.
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Show more buttons... -Pedro, can I ask you how you feel now that you have been out of school for a second?
-I cannot help to feel somewhat mad and upset just because why things have to be so hard.
Why cannot be just like... [ Sighs heavily ] Why cannot have the same chances that other people?
But then I start wondering.
It's like -- if I did have the chances... would I -- would I have actually... taken good -- taken advantage of them?
I don't know.
-Do you feel like there's such a thing as romanticizing struggle?
-There is.
But at the same time, sometimes I feel that... that's the only thing that we have, to make sense out of it.
'Cause otherwise, I don't know if I will be able to... to bear the frustration of... of how unjust my situation is and the situation of many people.
And I hate that narrative of, like, the good -- I'm the good immigrant.
Yes, I'm here.
I was able to make it this far.
But how many people have to sacrifice for me to get a chance?
My parents had to pretty much pawn their future.
Yes, I got a chance.
For -- To what price?
Yes, I got here for -- what's the price that my family had to pay for me to be here?
They are in their 60s.
They can no longer work.
And they don't have a future.
And what breaks me is the fact that they're okay with it because they wanted to do everything that was in their power for me to have a chance, for me to do something with my life.
Despite that they are not gonna count with a retirement plan or health care or even a roof over their heads, and they're okay with it, and they're not even expecting me to cover those expenses for them.
They're just happy that they got me a chance.
[ Sighs ] The air got too heavy.
[ Chuckles ] Too real.
Too...real.
You know... sometimes I would just like to give up.
Sometimes I would just like to stay in bed... ...don't give a crap about anything.
Just let things flow.
Let things be.
But it's so interesting that we don't even get the chance.
We don't get the luxury of giving up.
Or -- Or do we?
Do we get that option?
I don't know.
I just need to stop drinking coffee because it makes me rambling about life.
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Pedro.
Content list with four... Link... ♪♪ -What up with your, boyfriend?
Why's he getting all moody?
-I don't know.
Like I said, I attract the weird ones.
-Man.
But you're such a sweetheart.
I cannot believe they're going -- -Maybe that's why.
That's what my mom says.
She said, "You're too nice!"
-Uh, yeah.
-[ Laughs ] -I can see that being an issue sometimes.
-Yeah.
-I can definitely see that being an issue... -I never been in a committed relationship.
I thought it was a blind thing.
I thought it was just me because I was blind.
I felt that that had something to do with that feeling of unworthiness.
But as life progressed and as you're starting to connect and interact with other blind individuals, you understand that everyone -- everyone is capable of having a healthy relationship.
So that got me thinking that it's not a blind thing.
It was more like a Pedro's thing and me having to work on my own demons.
-You know, Pedro, it's so interesting that there are so many parallels between your experience and my experience when it comes to romantic relationships or even sex.
Because for me, as a queer person who grew up in the Church, shame and fear were pretty much the defining traumas of my life.
-I can definitely relate to that.
I guess that's the next step in my healing now -- being okay and being comfortable letting someone love me... and being able to love someone else.
♪♪ -Yes.
-I don't know!
I wish guys were just easy.
"I like you.
Do you like me?"
If only it was like that.
[ Laughs ] -Yeah.
-But it seems so easy for other people.
I think, like, when you have a disability, it just adds to the difficulty.
-It does, and I also feel that it has a lot to do with the body language, not being able to read body language.
-Maybe.
I didn't think of that!
-Yeah, cause we don't know if you're actually, like, making any -- rolling their eyes or...
Okay.
How do you know when I'm into somebody?
-I don't know.
I just can tell.
-You can just sense it?
-Yeah.
Just, like, certain things that you say, like, and how you say them.
-Oh!
Interesting.
Interesting.
Alright, alright.
-Yeah.
-Alright.
-Back up, back up, back up, back up.
Okay.
Sweep that cane.
I want you to find every obstacle.
[ Metallic thuds ] -Can I touch it?
-Yeah!
Now, that could be a person.
-Oh!
-You would be touching their rear end.
-[ Laughs ] -Just saying realistically.
Learn to use your cane.
And figure out which way to go around the chairs.
-Okay.
-Use the tip of your cane and feel so that you know where the path is clear.
[ Cane tapping ] -This is where the fun begins, for some people.
For some others, probably not.
But alright.
So we're on our way.
On our path, there are gonna be some obstacles.
So I want you to go -- swipe left and right, cover from shoulder to shoulder, just to see if we can find our obstacles.
[ Cane slides on floor ] [ Thud ] Okay.
Now you know that the obstacle is to your left.
So we're gonna stay to our right just to make sure to avoid the obstacle.
I just want you to... -Here's an obstacle.
-Yeah.
So now just go to the right.
[ Cane clicking ] So, imagine there are a bunch of drunk people on the road.
So you just start to go around them.
[ Chuckles ] Hey, man!
You're doing quite good.
I almost killed myself the first time that I did it.
-[ Laughs ] Thank you, Pedro.
-I got you, buddy.
Should we do some Braille?
-Give it a try.
-We can do some Braille.
-Okay.
-Dot one.
-Mm-hmm.
-Dot two?
-Mm-hmm.
-And dot four.
And dot five.
-Mm-hmm!
-So it's a "G." -Uh-huh.
So we have an "E" and a "G," and we need one more letter.
-Dot "A."
Isn't it?
-Mnh.
No.
-No.
-What other dots do you feel?
-Dot one... -Mm-hmm.
-And dot...five?
-Mm-hmm.
-So it's an "E." Isn't it?
-Do you feel more dots besides those?
-I feel dot four.
-Mm-hmm!
-So it's a "D." -I feel one more dot.
I feel four dots.
-Oh.
Dot one, dot two, dot four, and dot five.
-Yes, I feel that it's- -E-G-G. -E-G-G.
Egg.
-Egg.
[ Chuckles ] -Yep.
Correct!
[ Indistinct conversations ] -I always saw myself as an outsider.
-Mm.
-I always call it imposter syndrome because, like -- Wow.
They're seeing all this on me.
But I feel that someone else might be more qualified or more deserving than me.
But at the same time, having to not prove myself, but at the same time having to... having that commitment.
Okay.
You see this in me?
I need to work hard in order not to let you down or let myself down.
-Mm-hmm.
It goes deep.
I know it goes deep, Pedro.
-Yes, it does.
-I know it does.
It can't be easy.
And I feel like you -- sometimes I sense that in you, that you stress yourself to a point where it's like you have to prove that you deserve to be here because of your immigration and because of your disability.
And it's like -- You don't.
You don't have to prove that you deserve to be here 'cause you do deserve to be here.
You're here!
[ Chuckles ] You are here.
You are making a difference.
There's nothing to prove.
-Thank you.
-You know that, right?
-Trying to.
-[ Chuckles ] -Trying to.
Trying to.
It's so interesting because nowadays I find this as a refuge for me.
Being in the front row of that beautiful experience of seeing how people blossom... -Mm-hmm.
-...and seeing how resilience makes its magic with the people.
It's just beautiful.
-Yeah.
-It's addicting.
-Yeah, it is.
-Seeing people grow and seeing other people, like, just so hungry for an opportunity, and in a way, in a good way, seeing myself reflecting other people.
Like, "Hey!
I was there."
-Uh-huh.
-I needed an opportunity.
-Yeah.
-And just being able to do that, pay it forward.
-Mm-hmm.
That's awesome.
-It's just powerful.
It's just powerful to me.
♪♪ [ Indistinct conversations ] ♪♪ -Hoy vamos a hablar acerca de resiliencia, qué es la resiliencia, los factores que influyen en la resiliencia.
De esos factores, nos vamos a enfocar más que nada en el optimismo, cómo el optimismo influye en la resiliencia y qué mecanismos, qué comportamientos, pensamientos o hábitos ayudan a fortalecer ese optimismo.
Básicamente, cuando piensan ustedes en resiliencia, ¿cuáles son algunas de las palabras que se les vienen a la mente?
-Afrontamiento.
-Okay.
¿Qué más?
-Sobreponerse a adversidades.
-Muy bien.
¿Qué más?
-Tolerancia.
-Tolerancia también.
Muy bien.
-Dentro de todos los, digamos, diferentes diagnósticos o temas de salud mental, uno en particular que nos ha llamado la atención a los dos ha sido personas que han vivido con trauma.
Y por ser indocumentados se vive un trauma crónico.
Cuando tú vives sin un estatus legal, tú tienes un miedo todos los días.
A salir a la calle.
A que te cuestionen tu estatus.
A pedir ayuda y que te la nieguen por no tener un seguro social.
A querer calificar para algo, incluso si es algo para ayudar a la gente, y no poder hacerlo porque te detiene no tener un seguro social.
Pedro, tú eres una persona sobrecalificada.
Y hay una necesidad muy grande.
En el estado no hay suficientes proveedores de salud mental.
Y que aparte tengas todas las calificaciones, o cualificaciones, que tú tienes.
Que eres profesional de salud mental, que eres bilingue, que eres hombre.
Aparte, casi no hay terapeutas hombres.
Mayormente somos mujeres.
-Qué bonito que poco a poco estoy tratando de cerrar ese círculo de primero estar como cliente y después poder convertirme también en una persona que pueda ayudar a los demás.
Y eso me llena de mucha satisfacción y de orgullo, y una gran responsabilidad, ¿no?, porque si no hubiera habido gente como tú, pues yo no podría estar aquí.
Y ahora yo creo que es mi responsabilidad estar del otro lado, tratar de apoyar a quien está detrás de mí a seguir su camino, ¿no?
Porque al final del día es como una cadena de favores.
Es como -- tú me ayudas a mí, yo te ayudo a ti y entre los dos ayudamos a alguien más.
♪♪ -Pedro, can you believe that it has been six years since we started filming?
I don't know if you remember the first time we filmed at your old house.
-I do.
-I'm curious, if you don't mind me asking, how do you feel about this thing that we've been doing, me following you around during the last few years?
-My perception about it changes.
I'm afraid.
I'm excited.
I have used it also as a... another healing opportunity.
Just -- I don't know -- being vulnerable and being exactly who I am.
I'm tired of being of, in a way... having to fragment myself in order to fit in different situations, in different settings, and feel accepted.
[ Indistinct conversations ] -Dale abrazo a tu padrino.
Abraza a tu padrino.
[ Laughter ] Mira.
Así.
Así como yo.
Abraza a tu padrino.
Abrazo, abrazo.
Ya te está dando abrazo.
-Le hace: "No, no.
Ya".
No me quiso enseñar sus zapatos de Peppa Pig.
-¿De Peppa Pig?
-Sí.
-¿Quién tiene Peppa Pig?
-Miguel parece Peppa Pig y la niña tiene zapatos de Peppa Pig.
-...cabrón.
-Es que el perro anda suelto, y cuando viene el perro le da miedo.
-Cuando estaba más chiquita te tenía miedo a ti.
-Cómo cambia la vida.
-Ahí estás.
¿Cómo estás, maestro?
¿Cómo estás?
Tengo la patita mala.
-¿Cuántos años tienes, Emanuel?
[ Laughter ] -Ya supéralo... -31.
-No... -...tienes como 35.
-Yo voy a cumplir 33... -¿Tienes 33?
Soy del 89.
-Yo también soy del 89.
-Por eso.
Julio del 89.
¿Tú eres de abril del 89?
Ahí está.
Entonces 32... Primero la otra no me quiere abrazar, y tú me sales con tus jaladas.
Sí, valió madres.
-Ayúdame a mover la mesa, ¿no, Miguel?
-Ah, simón.
Aguántame.
-¿Seguro?
♪♪ -You know, Pedro, when I first approached you to film, my main intention was for advocacy, to bring to light this dual experience of immigration and disability in your life.
But after all these years, I think my motivations to continue filming with you has changed.
Just like you talked about healing, this film has been a big part of my healing, too.
I find myself resonating a lot with the intersectionalities that you share with me, and, in many ways, I feel less alone to go through the uncertainties I face in life, being undocumented, and, in my case, queer.
I don't know if I ever told you about this poem that I wrote.
If I can recite it from memory, it's called "Me Authentically."
It goes something like this.
"If I were to be me authentically, I wonder if you would still love me.
If you were to see the truth behind my story, would you still willingly embrace my reality?
I used to think I wasn't worthy of being loved in my totality.
Shame became the enemy, convincing me I am eternally guilty.
But I deserve a life, not a lifelong penalty.
After all, my truth is too beautiful to bury.
I'll never know what it feels like to be truly happy if the love I take is never rooted in honesty.
So I'll no longer say sorry for wanting to be free.
These lies are too heavy for my heart to carry.
From here on, I'll live my truth with no apology.
I hope you'd be ready to love me unconditionally."
-That poem pretty much... summarized my life.
♪♪ For the longest, I never gave credit to myself.
And now I'm trying to do that.
And that gives me a sense of abundance.
And that doesn't mean even having papers.
[ Laughs ] That just means having a peace of mind.
That just means being in peace with myself.
♪♪ Being okay with my shadow and embrace my shadow because that's part of who I am.
No shame on that.
♪♪ ♪♪ -♪ Ooh ♪ ♪ Ooh ♪ ♪♪ ♪ Ooh ♪ ♪ Ooh ♪ ♪ Aah-aah-aah-aah ♪ ♪ Ooh ♪ ♪ Ooh ♪ ♪ Aah-aah-aah-aah-aah ♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪
